time will not flee

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO

I’m moving back to Michigan!

Leaving Saturday morning.

I can’t wait to see my besties and my sissy and my grammy!

thennnn uhhh

gotta start school at either Mott again or maybe Novi with Christina!

but this isn’t a for sure positive thing yet.

so I can’t get my hopes up tooo high.

If my mom or Jeff all the sudden gets a job by tomorrow, then we have to stay.

I’m hoping and praying that doesn’t happen, I’m sick of the loneliness.

Also, I talked to my ex again, like a retard.

Its deffinately not going anywhere

idk why i care or put any of my time into talking to him

but i do, and i’ll get over it someday.

I really need to quit holding on so much…. jeeeth

Today was nuts. When I was in my second period, my math teacher had called the office and I didn’t know what for and I didn’t think it had anything to do with me. But about ten minutes later an officer comes into the classroom and pulls me out, and takes me to his office. I kept asking him what for and he wouldn’t tell me til we got there. And when we got there he asked me all these questions: “do you take any medication?”  “have you been sick recently?”  “were you up late last night?”  “what were you doing?”  stuff like that. and I didn’t exactly know where he was going with it until he told me that my teacher told him that i smelled like alchohol. And I was like “WHAAAAAT?!” and I couldn’t figure out why he would say that. So the Police officer checked my eyes and made me follow the pencil. I was so nervous and shaky, i almost cried. And I passed it and he was really cool about it. And he said not to be mad at my teacher and that he’s just doing his job. But i have every right to be mad at him because there was nothing suspicious about me and I’ve been a very good student.  Anyway, I’m going to get taken out of that class as quickly as possible. And maybe take like a foreign language or something.

Anyways, a few minutes after i got home the electricity got shut off, so we couldn’t eat anything really. So we went to the soup kitchen for homeless people, and when we got there it was closed, and this nice black couple were walking there and we asked them when it opened, and they said that only the people that lived in the shelter could eat there, but they offered us food, and my mom kept on telling them no but they insisted, and they bought us chicken, mac&cheese, and corn. It was so nice of them and we would have had to eat cold canned foods. I wish there were more people like that in the world.

      I hate my school, its so freezing that I have to wear 2 hoodies everyday and even then i still shiver all day, then when i get out of school i gotta  carry all this shit, and i have to walk 2 miles everyday and its miserable.

      The first day of me using the bus, i started walking home and i wasn’t exactly sure on how to get home so i took a guess. i ended up going the complete opposite direction of where i was supposed to go. So i was lost for three hours and finally when i got home, i walked in the door and cried and told my mom what happened. she felt really bad and gave me some ice tea and such.

      But that day did turn out really good afterwards, because i had my friend Si come get me and i hung out with him for the day. I’m really starting to like him too. He’s really cute and silly and fun to talk to. I really like his friends too, they’re hilarious and i hope to hang out with them more often. It kinda feels like I’m dating him but idk cause he didnt ask me out or anything, we just see eachother when we can and he kisses me. But there is one thing that bugs me about him and its that he needs to brush his teeth better :/ they’re really nice and everything, just yelllooowwww. And that’s always the first thing i look for on a guy is the teeth.

     Anyways, about today..it was an alright day, until i started walking home and i crossed the street when it was time to, and as i was half way across, this old man drives through like im not even there and runs over my foot and doesnt look back or anything. i was in shock and when i got home i started sobbing and my mom wasnt there, and i really wish she was cause she’s the most comforting person.

anywaysss datsh alll

I just got my lip peirced a couple days ago, and the peircer who is 31 was hittin on me on myspace…pretttyyy creeepy.And uhh, i finally start school Tuesday and im really nervous. I hope I make some friends, I’m tired of not doing anything on the weekends hah, thats about it.

bye

I just realised something super creepy. Almost anyone anybody meets off of the internet, knowing they will never meet, they act like they will. Like, they’ll say things like “lets cuddle!” or “I’ll dance with you!” or “let’s kiss!” or say they’ll go here with you or do this with you. It doesn’t make any sense lol. And they’ll never ever dance with eachother.

I haven’t said anything for a while..uhh I had my friend Brandon stay over for a few days because he was supposed to move and needed somewhere to stay before he flew out. My mom and I agreed it would be okay. So we went to get him, got lost for about an hour and then went home. I was irritated at first and I just went to bed early. I had to lock my door because he was like pounding on my door and yelling at me. The second day he started crying to me cause i wouldn’t kiss him and stuff and that he was going to miss me. I got really freakedout when he did that, and was really distant from him ever since. I just got to the point where i can’t stand his voice, the way he moves and thinks. He kept saying how sorry he was and how he wanted to be friends and i just wouldn’t answer to him. Now that he’s gone i feel bad for being such a bitch to him. I don’t why but he really pushed my buttons and got me mad. He was very disrespectful to me. But anyways, he’s gone now and i have my space back. I’m lonely though. Oh well. Anyways, my mom and Jeff got into this huge fight today, it was the dumbest fight I’ve ever heard and now he’s about to move out I guess. He has a couple small bags packed. I don’t think they’re actually going to stay broken up though, I hope..I really like Jeff and I would hate to see them break up. He’s actually nice to me and I can get along with him really well..I’m supposed to get my lip peirced tommorrow so im excited for that :D

 today i’m hangin out with my new pal carlos, and he has a chipped tooth, and i feel really bad cause i always stare at people’s teeth. soo hopefully this goes well…aha

konroy:

Its kind of obnoxious haha. I say bro a lot too. and Papa (insert animal name here).

like while playing Capture the flag I name everyone. Like papa gazell. mama platapus. Papa eagle. ext.

Shannon you have a horrible taste in guys. JUST TELLING YOU GURL. threw tumblr. because the whole tumblr world needs to know. because I love you and I am going to see you in 5 days : D

 NO YOU DO!

At first, I hated everything,but now things are really starting to get better. I’m meeting new people, making friends and I’m so excited to see my two best friends. I really feel special that they’re flying to see me.I’m not so excited to start school, but oh well, I’ll get past that. I’m also going to start looking for jobs and such and then get my license really soon hopefully.I have a lot of growing up to do and I need to get started now. I realise that I’m not where i should be, I’m 18 now and I don’t have a car or anything. I’m going to try my hardest to pull everything together this year.